It’s been two weeks! Sorry guys. This post is going to include some rambling of what I’ve been up to (which isn’t much) and how I’ve been feeling, so maybe you will understand why I haven’t been around as much.
I will start with how I’ve been feeling. I am so tired all of the time. I am 30 years old and feel like I’m 80 or something. I hardly have any energy whatsoever. That’s the main reason why I haven’t been blogging much at all. I just have no energy to do so. I actually feel relatively decent today, which is why I’m squeezing this post in while I feel up to it. On weekends I’ve even been too tired to do makeup looks or to go out and get food. I’ve been having my mom pick things up for me. I just want my energy back! You’re probably thinking I should go to the doctor, but I really don’t want to spend money to go when they probably won’t be of any help. Literally any time I’ve gone to the doctor it hasn’t done anything but drain my bank account. I have to be practically dying to go to the doctors.
With that said, I’ve decided to start trying some herbal remedies to see if that helps. I bought an herbal bitter which is supposed to help with digestion. I’m hoping it will help ease my IBS symptoms a bit. I’ve only been using it a few days so far though. I was hoping it was working, but then tonight I experienced some of my usual cramping (even after I took some of it), so I don’t know. I’ll just keep taking it and see what happens as time goes on. I ordered three herbal tinctures from a different shop last night before I went to bed. I was pleasantly surprised when I woke up today to find that they have shipped already. I’m really excited to try them. One is for healthy hair and skin, one is a mood booster, and the other is an energy booster. I have no idea if these will work or help me at all, but I figured it was at least worth a shot.
Now that I got that out of the way, I will say that I’m excited for Christmas! I want to try to do at least one Christmas makeup look before then, so hopefully I will feel up to it this weekend. I finished all of my Christmas shopping at the beginning of the month, but of course when I buy for others I see things to buy myself as well. I ended up buying a set of earrings among other things. You can see one pair of the earrings in the very first picture in this post. It was a set of three, with yellow, pink, and purple lightning bolts. I wore the yellow pair to work the other day and got lots of compliments.
I ended up getting upset at work today because a coworker brought in gifts for the other girls, but I didn’t get anything. Not even a card. I’ve never really been close with her like that so I wouldn’t expect anything from her, nor do I care that I didn’t get a gift. The whole gift thing is irrelevant to me. What bothered me was that she gave all of them gifts while I was sitting right there. She could have easily given them the gifts before I got there, so I felt it was just disrespectful to wait until my shift started to do so. Once they got the gifts, I had to sit there and listen to them squeal with excitement over their gifts and show each other what they got, all while I just sat there pretending not to notice or care. I just felt so awkward and uncomfortable, and I will admit I felt left out and had my feelings hurt. I’ve worked with her for five years now, much longer than any of the others. Even though we weren’t very close, we would still talk to each other. This kind of thing has been going on the whole time we’ve worked together though. Like she would always decorate everyone’s desk for their birthday, while I never got the same treatment. She’s always been so hot and cold with me. One minute we’re talking and laughing together, and the next I feel like she hates me. I’m done trying. I’m just going to be done with her. My other co-workers can talk about how much they love her and how amazing she is all they want. I can see the wolf in sheep’s clothing and I don’t have time for fakes. I always felt like an outsider back when I was in school, so this whole situation just kind of took me back to that time. All these feelings and memories resurfaced. That’s why I got so upset, but now I’m just going to move on from it.
Now that my rambling is complete, I want to finish this post by thanking the lovely Hunida for sending me this card and little gift package in the mail. We’ve never even had the honor of meeting in person, yet she was still kind and generous enough to think of me and show her appreciation. It really did mean a lot to me!