2019 hasn’t been too kind so far, and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better. Tonight I received some bad news. I was getting ready to leave work when my dad let me know that my uncle passed away tonight. He said my aunt tried to wake him up and he wouldn’t wake up. We don’t really know the cause yet, but he’s been really sick off and on for the past nine months. The doctors said it was allergies, but I was very skeptical. Allergies do not make someone that sick (that I’m aware of). He would become really pale, run a fever, be unable to keep any food/drinks down, and he lost a lot of weight. Then he would be okay again for a while, and the cycle would repeat.
He was an alcoholic and would drink heavily every day. I have no doubt that his drinking probably tied into his death somehow. I think perhaps he might have had cirrhosis of the liver, but if that’s the case, I’m surprised the doctors never caught it. Honestly, I think the doctors should be sued or something. Perhaps if they had found the real source of his illness and not just shrugged it off as allergies, he might still be alive.
I cried a little bit after I found out, but I think I’m still in shock a bit. Like it doesn’t really feel real yet. The grief will probably really end up hitting me later on. I had already requested off work on Thursday (Valentine’s Day) and Friday, and my job is closed on Monday. I just wanted a mini-vacation from work and do something for myself for Valentine’s Day. (This will be my 7th straight Valentine’s Day spent single). However, now it’s looking like I’ll be mourning and laying to rest a family member instead. I’m not sure when the viewing/funeral arrangements will be yet though.
All I can think about right now is my aunt who must be completely devastated. They’ve been together 32 years. (They got together over a year before I was born, so although he’s not biologically related to me, he has been in my family for my entire life). Plus, his birthday is this month, and with Valentine’s Day coming up, that probably just makes it even more devastating for her.
EDIT [2/13]: The grief is starting to set in more now. I have been crying a good bit today. I’m still in the denial stage a bit, as it still doesn’t feel completely real. My uncle’s obituary was posted, and the viewing is set for Friday the 15th.